I've been learning a lot about prayer this week.
The future feels really uncertain right now. I find incredible security in God's call. He's definitely giving me a sense of destiny. But my unanswered questions during this transition are a daily reminder that I'm not in control of my life.
At first I thought I had surrendered control to God, but then I realized that I never actually had it to begin with. Granted, at times life has felt more settled, but what I had wasn't actually control, but the illusion of it.
Now back to prayer. I'm a little embarrassed to share this, but I think I've been praying more now that I don't feel like I'm in control. And when I realized that, here's what hit me. When I neglect prayer, it's because at some level I've subconsciously bought into the notion that I'm in control of things.
So I'm thankful for the uncertainty in my life right now. I'm grateful to be reminded that my future has always rested in God's hands alone. And I'm committed to continue to acknowledge Him, even after some of the blanks have been filled in.
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